Going to Washington

I have wanted to blog many times lately, but have been too busy. Today is no exception. I don't have time to write about the things God has been showing me, but after my trip maybe I'll have some chances to write.
In a few hours, I will be on a plane to Washington, D.C. with 23 of my classmates and an organization called Close Up. All week I'll be visiting places in Washington, participating in workshops and debates, and all sorts of interesting stuff. I'll be with kids from several other states, and share a room with two girls from another state. It hasn't quite hit me that I'm going, even though I've been raising money for this for months. But I'm kind of nervous. From the time I decided to go on this trip it was because I thought God could use me and teach me through this kind of experience. My hope has been that I would use the opportunities I have with peers who have other beliefs and backgrounds to share the gospel with them, or somehow be a witness of Christ to them. This scares me. I know that I could have spent this money on a big mission trip--there were several that I thought about--but I could never really feel God telling me that. I still thought he wanted me to go on this trip, even though some of my Christian friends decided not to go. And so, as I planned, I will try to make this into a mission trip, reaching out not to the poor or to the children or to those expecting to hear about God, but to my own peers. This thought seems almost ridiculous to me-- If I don't witness to the people in my school I see every day, how could I be effective with people I see for only a week?
I have prayed for God to prepare me for this trip. I'm trying to trust that he will teach me and use me. It's going to be harder to trust when I'm there and he tells me to speak or do something kind of crazy.
Writing this makes me accountable. Instead of just sitting back and enjoying the trip, I'm going to also be listening for God and looking for opportunities. Then when I get back, maybe I'll have some cool things to write.
Please pray for me this week. I have very little confidence in myself. Hopefully I can at least have confidence in Christ in me. And hopefully he will make this week an awesome experience for me.
Goodbye! I'll be back Saturday. (hopefully in time for prom!)